First and foremost, i want to say how completely bogus it feels to be in this position. I don't think anyone should have to announce their sexuality in such a public setting, but i feel as if i have no choice. I cannot continue on this living trying to keep the truth only noticeable to people who are paying attention or to those with whom i've desired a more intimate relationship. That being said, i realize that the repercussions of this announcement may be dire. I'm putting my livelihood, safety and overall quality of life at stake here. I have no idea what's coming, but i'm confident that the sh!t is going to hit.
To all of you ladies out there, please do not take offense. I have nothing against you as a whole. I think most of you have a role to play and don't feel like you have any choice but to play it. More power to you and good luck with that. Remember though that we all have choices and that includes you.
Lastly, this is in no way an indictment or outing of anyone with whom i've associated with in the past, currently or going forward. I have been completely shot down and shut down by every guy i've tried to get close to and although it hurts me to say it, you shant be concerned about their sexual preference. Having said all that, if you are still thoroughly confused, allow me to spell it out for you. I prefer guys to girls plain and simple. I'm tired of being ashamed of that and i'm tired of the bullsh!t games that we've all been playing. My "natural" attractions notwithstanding, i've made a conscientious choice. I could be with a girl and lie to her and myself or i could just be myself. Not sure yet which will be harder, but i guess i'm about to find out.
Thank you for your attention.